So many people grapple at what love REALLY is. To be honest, the only type of love I've experienced thoroughly and unconditionally is that love between parent and child (specifically from my mother). I do not know my father, and I'm not ashamed to let that be known. Sometimes I wonder if my not knowing my father has anything to do with the troubles I've had in romantic relationships...and even in some friendships? I'm sure it does in some way, but that's beside the point....
I know not of the love that people claim to have experienced with their "significant other". Sure I've experienced that "feeling" of what I thought was romantic love; but, I was sadly mistaken. I have been through many changes in my life dealing with men...and the games that they play...that I've decided to withdraw myself from the "game of Love" 100% totally and completely for the time being. I'm sure to those reading this this...this seems to be the common script to many women; however, I believe my story may be slightly different.
I feel like my experience with love has been the way it's been, because God wants me to put Him first. Many women who've had similar experiences dwell on their less than great relationships OVER and OVER but get nothing out of the experience besides loneliness, bitterness, resentment, and the possibility of settling AGAIN in the future. Not taking anything positive out of your negative experience will only hurt you in the long run. Yes, I know it may hurt going back and reflecting on the pain you may have endured, but it's the only way to become a better from your experience.
When people, especially women, find themselves on the other end of failed relationships we need to take the mistakes we've made and apply them EFFECTIVELY (not just until we find ourselves another "boo") to the way we interact with people, how we carry ourselves, and the image we are trying to create for ourselves, among other things. I feel it's very important that when reflecting on hardships to find solace in God because when it comes down to it...He's the only being that will NEVER leave us...if only we'll depend on Him in everything we do.
Thanks for reading. That is all.
-Tania AKA Nia Janei...THE Prototype
